Rocket's rant and rage

I need to start having contact with you. There are many features this site offers. I am only seeing the very basics. I need some notches on the bed post.
The fine art of fighting is something that needs to be experienced. I see guys fighting occasionally but usually out of anger. To have two concenting adult males punching each other and at the end they are jumping into bed. It is something I have yet to experience. I have been told putting on a pair of boxing gloves is similar to bring handcuffed. The moment you have them tied on your hands it a sign that this will happen and I am not getting out of it. You are in the fight. I don't have any idea how it feels yet. I imagine it is moment of great feeling of sexual energy. The beauty of two men who respect each other and sill lace up the gloves is erotic for someone like myself. I have been told that fighting is like making love. It becomes the passionate lover that you never can let go. I have watched men box and I could see that spark. It is not obvious in the straight boxers but it is there.. Two nicely toned men... I don't need to say. I find it amazing how guys can move from violence and aggression to passion and love in a matter of seconds. Can you explain what this is? Questions will hopefully be answered someday. At 60 yo I got to put the petal to the metal. I have wasted time regarding this. I turned my hard earned money into a nice house with a yard. I did that but the basic primal needs have left me wondering. The sight of a fist as it is about to smash your face. Do you ever notice the hit coming at you. Do you ever notice the opponents face, is he smiling... Does something like this happen or is it all too quick. I know my first hit to the face will have a profound impact on my life. Can you remember the first good hit you took to the face. I suspect you can even if it was in anger. I have been busy with life and missing living..
Please help me get some points on the board..